boyinabasement

I'm just so damn happy :D

I don't know where the sunbeams end
And the starlight begins
It's all a mystery
And I don't know how a man decides
What's right for his own life
It's all a mystery
'Cause I'm a man, not a boy
And there are things you can't avoid
You have to face them
When you're not prepared to face them

Right now Im just alternating between sadness and seething rage =/

the fuck is wrong with me?

Comment and I'll;
1) Respond with something random about you.
2) Tell which song or movie film movie reminds you of them.
3) Pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4) Say something that only makes sense to the two of us.
5) First memory of you.
6) The animal you remind me of.
7) Ask something that I've always wondered about you.
8) Tell my favorite thing about them.
9) Tell my least favorite thing about them.
10) If you play, you MUST post this on yours if you want to

My Subjects, given by the fucking AMAZING hybrid_ookami 

1. The name Kyoobi <3 <3
2. How you got the name Rioteh
3. TACO TRUCKS!! And other silly things only California has
4. Gravitation
5. Your rapping career
( READ MOAR BULLSHIT @D@ )

 

 

 

In this survey thingy, you tell me if you want to play, and I'll give you five things to talk about.

If you wanna ask me more shit, go ahead, this is fun.

My five, as given by the fantabulous lalalemons , inventor of CAKEWURST(tm).

1. The place you live
2. DBZ
3. Fanime
4. College <:1
5. Music awwww yeah
( READ A BUNCHA BULLSHIT @D@ )

EDIT:  Ho shit, I ruined my formatting and had to do this from the ground up again.  It's okay, because I feel like this is more entertaining.

Tonight, I read at the Queen Bean once again. It was pretty rad. I was amidst awesome company(Jaybo, Linds, Dillhole), and just had rad adventures. I also got some closure by way of anticlimax. I'm glad that Karson didn't try the whole "lets be friends" thing and just left things as is.

Some guy tried to sell rock to Julian, Andrew, Dan and I near the tacotrucks. What the fuck

Also; I reconnected with someone I haven't seen since 3rd grade tonight.

And, as always, the lovely and talented Miss Reggie Ginn performed an awesome fucking set.

I have no idea what I'm on about.

I'm going to bed. Peace.

I just don't fucking understand anything.... fuuuuuuck

I'm sick of living in a house full of psychos. Get me the fuck out of here.

I know what I want to do now...
I think I'm making the right choices.

Here goes a roll of the dice.

"A lucid dream is a dream in which the sleeper is aware that he is dreaming. When the dreamer is lucid, they can actively participate in and often manipulate the imaginary experiences in the dream environment. Lucid dreams can be extremely real and vivid depending on a person's level of self-awareness during the lucid dream."

This is a phenomenon that I've been infatuated with from a young age. Lucid Dreaming was a state I had constantly wished to achieve, but rarely succeeded in. Those elusive moments had mostly occurred in my overtly-hormonally charged middle school years. As a result, I've wasted the state on dream sex, with no backstory, and no fully-intensive world to go along with it. The later occasions where I have reached this state can be summarized in one phrase, "Too little too late.", as I had woke up shortly after my awareness during the dream. Eventually, I had began to care less and less for this state, and it had been become an afterthought in my mind.

If that is the case, then why do I even bother recollecting these rare events? As it turns out, this state has become increasingly accessible to me. In my sleep, I have been creating this complex, intricate world that I have become absolutely enamored with. This is a world with technologies not unlike our own, however they are assembled with cogs, clockwork, and brass. A bizarre fusion of the 21st century and the 19th, where the regal ships of Britain's great navy rule the sky rather than the sea. And I, Sam Vigil, am not a directionless high school graduate, but a swashbuckler among the clouds, re-appropriating goods owned by the tyrannical overlords to distribute among the poor. It's a world that is filled with adventure, where I have no responsibilities or expectations thrust upon me, yet I have some sort of a purpose. This idyllic place that lies in my mind has remained my awaited destination throughout the day for the past week or so, but my infatuation for it has left me increasingly unsettled.

I've come to believe that my recent developments in the world of lucid dreaming is a direct result of my fears of the future. I currently have no direction, and as the days go on I've been becoming increasingly terrified for what lies ahead. Because of this, my recent lucidity may seem like the perfect outlet, but I'm afraid that it will spoil actual life for me. At first, I could go lucid without a thought, because it seemed like fun. Now, it feels like it has been becoming mindless escapism, no different than drug use or drinking. A defense mechanism to keep my eyes averted from the real world. I feel tethered to this romantic steampunk world, a place where my fears and inadequacies vanish.

My final summation; my point?
None, this is just a bizarre rant of my thoughts, fears, and experiences with lucid dreaming. It may have stopped abruptly, but it's also where my train of thought had ended.

I might be able to explain this better to you via conversation, which is always welcome
AIM: Remi Leopold
If you're interested that is.

Au Revoir, High School. Eat a dick.

Four days till I'm out in the real world
BRING THAT SHIT ON!

Believe in Wonderland, niggas.

PROM PICS NIGGA!

Pre-Prom at Kerries, from Kerrie's camera
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2021432&id=1046550094&l=58419a3f23

Pre-Prom at my place, Kerrie's, Tasty Thai, and Prom parte uno, from Uncle Virg's camera
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2021451&id=1046550094&l=2728ff5f23

Prom Part Deux, still from Virgil's cam
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2021453&id=1046550094&l=75096344d4

Prom pics from Kerrie's disposable should be coming soon.

Come aboard and bring along all your hopes and dreams!
Together we will find everything that we're lookin' for,
ONE PIECE!
Compass left behind, it'll only slow us down,
Your heart will be your guide, raise the sail, and take the helm,
That legendary place, that the end of the map reveals,
Is only legendary 'till someone proves it real,
Through it all, through all the troubles and through the heartache, and through the pain
Know that I will be there to stand by you, just like I know you'll stand by me!

Come aboard and bring along all your hopes and dreams!
Together we will find everything that we're lookin' for,
There's always room for you, if you wanna be my friend!
We are, we are on the cruise!
We are!

Less Money, More Problems
shitsux

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
and all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that I'd like to say to you, but I don't know how

Because maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me.
After all, you're my wonderwall....

A mix for making up after dumb arguments.
"Welcome Home"
When Doves Cry - Prince
Rainy Monday - Shiny Toy Guns
Slip Out - BECK: Mongolian Chop Squad soundtrack
Coma - Seo Taiji
Cupid De Locke - Smashing Pumpkins
Chikyuugi (The World)- Yumi Matsuzawa
Both Hands (Ani DiFranco cover) - Some Acapella group O_o;
Reckless - Tilly and the Wall
Beautiful Morning With You - The Pillows
You Come Through - PJ Harvey
Kimi no Tame Ni Dekiru Koto (acoustic) - Gackt
Welcome Home - Tegan and Sara

You taught me victory is sweet, even deep in the cheap seats.